It cant be true..it has to be a nightmare...how could it all happen at once..this is really hard on me..and im positive its even harder on them...but i am going to dedicate this post to 4 really great friends who have helped me through a lot these last months.
Kayty *Kaytlynn*- Kayty, you have been a really big encouragement in my life..stopping me from suicide not only once but twice. Just encouraging me through all the hard times I have been having. Helping me understand the word of God more. It has been really great having you as a neighbor, when I needed to talk or just a hug...you said "Whenever you feel lonely, or need a place to go for anything..you can always come over here. God wants you. We want you." That was a really big encouragment.
Whitty *Whitney*-Whitty you have also been a big encouragment in my life the last months. It was like everytime I turned around you were there..already knowing what was going on..you knew already, which made it easier to talk because I didnt have to explain it. That is one thing I hate, having to explain myself over and over to different people. You showed me through your heart surgery in January, that God is protective, he has a plan, and knows when you are going to die. He also showed me that he is protective when you were in your car accident. I think if God can take you through 3 open heart surgerys, and a car accident in your life-time..he is more than amazing, you cant even explain in words on how amazing he is. I love you Whitty, and Im ALWAYS thinking about you and praying for you. Friends forever no matter what happens.
Shanny-boo*Shannon*-Shanny-boo you have been able to make me laugh no matter what is happening, I wasnt able to see it, but it sounded pretty funny when you told Morgan that you were moving that you started to try to get ur reflexes to work. Lol wow. Thinking how odd it is to draw on the sidewalk when ur a freshmen..it sounds kinda corny but it is fun and funny:). I know that you werent able to hear Morgans and my joke that was so funny about Shanny-boo and you probably dont want to, but you still laughed..thats what makes you such a great friend, other than you smile a lot, you know ways to get people to laugh going through really tough times in life. I love you Shanny-boo. I know thinking about the memories I had with you and making me laugh will come back but just thinking of them now are making me cry. Hopefully when this all comes into my head a lil better I can look back on them and laugh, instead of cry. Please dont forget me.
Han*Hannah*-Han you are so fun. You are also funny, but also I think one of the weirdest things I have done in a while that I normally wouldnt do everyday, is play catch when there is no light at all. It was really fun, just not when we got hit with the ball. Lol that was still pretty fun. I will NEVER forget the night that we played catch in the dark then decided to sit on the ground infront of your house. That will be a memory that will stick with me forever!! I love you Han. I hope someday we could play catch in the dark again, maybe we will be a lil more expierianced and we could play without getting hit so much. Lol. I love yah hun.
I love all of you. Dont forget to rememebr me, or any of the funny memories. Morgan and I will stick together and you can come join our group if you get lonely. or just when you come back. There has been a lot of tears lately, and I hope that it will get easier as the days go by, but i love you so much. I wrote you a poem:
Leaving
Open your arms to change, but please don’t lose yourselfYou are what makes you who you are in sickness and in health
A friendly atmosphere has made you who you are to beYour character is in charge and will control your destiny
You’ll go someplace you’ve never gone, you’ll make your mark again,
You will reset your standards, and sure will make new friends
As soon as today is yesterday your heart will always giveI hope you won’t regret today, cause your future longs to live
If our paths don’t cross again, I won’t forget this dayCause I’m afraid of change, I’m scared to shift my waysMy eyes will see things they’ve never seen, but I’ve always been here
The time that counts your moments gone will teach me not to fear.
You’ll look upon your life and see familiar groundsYou’ll hear the call of memories and recognize the sound
All the lives you change will make stars disappearAnd as you’re settled down, you’ll realize you’ve never left here. (In memories)