Sunday, January 21, 2007

Life.

I've been thinking a lot lately;; well, not just thinking about anything, thinking about life, and how much people are taking life for granet. How much people don't know what they have, and complain about every little thing that happens, wether it's about a small thing, such as there "maid" didn't breathe the right way, or a thing, such as an airplane landing on your house, but yet, there are people and especially kids, teenagers even all over the world, who have nothing, no family, no house, no food, no extra money;; who complain about nothing, who are just happy they have a life. They don't have any crosses of suicide running through their head, they don't cry and mope around the house all day, because they are bored, or, their best friend said something they didn't like.
Now those of you who know me well, you know that I am one of those complainers, one of those moping around the house crying all day, negatively thinking people. So I really have no room to talk. But I'm going to.
I just honestly don't get, how some have so much, they have a family, they have friends, they have food, they have clothes, they canget an education, they have extra money laying round, they have internet access, digital camera, expensive electornics, expensive musical insturments, a pair of pants that cost over $70--I could go on, but I think you get the point. But yet you have people around the world, people who aren't even adults yet even, who aren't even teens, who have nothing at all, who have to walk 2 miles, bare footed, hot sun on your back, 3 or 4 times a day, with a big pot, weighing quite a bit on its own, just to get water, so they can live, who don't have any money laying around the house, who would give anything, to be given even the smallest education.
Yes, I know, there are mountians to climb in life, walking is easier when the road is flat. For some people the mountains are bigger. But does that mean, while climbing that mountain, we an just say, we can't go any further, and fall down? We can just go back to the way things were before, because our feet got tired? No, it doesn't. We won't go back to the way things were before. Life doesn't work backwards, it works fowards. You dont go from the future to the past, you go from the past to the future.
I've been through a lot in my life;; I don't know my real dad, I moved from everything and everybody I have ever known, had to find the hard way on who my true friends were, I've lost very close loved ones in my life due to deaths, My boyfriend is moving to Virginia--I have had many more things happen, but you should be getting the point. I've tried running away from my problems, I've tried suicide, honestly I have. I've cut, I've burned, I've overdosed, I've tried hanging myself, I've tried beating myself up. But after ever attempt, I've realized they all have one thing in common, they don't work. Some give you more pain, more marks, more embarrasement than others. But, I'm still alive, and to think of it, I'm happy I am. I'm happy that a certain someone had told a few people about it, which got me into a bit mess, made me loose a few friends in the process, but saved my life.
I guess the point I'm trying to make, is that, life is importnant. Each and every person that God has put into this world, is important. Otherwise why would God have put us here? God hasn't bailed on us, God hasn't EVER given up on us, God is always there for us, why shouldn't we do the same for Him? Why should we bail on Him, why should we let Him down, because we didn't like something in this world? God gave us life, we only get one chance on earth, why not make the best of it? God has our lives planned out, He knew us before we took our first breath, and He know the day that we will breathe the last. He will never give us more than we can handle. And if the load gets to heavy, don't ask for God to take stuff of of the load, you ask Him to give you stronger arms to carry it.
Giving up is not the answer.

Monday, January 15, 2007

rawr.

RAWR!!!